Fellaheen

I was hoping I could avoid writing about myself in this blog, instead trying to discuss topics objectively. Then it occurred to me that any attempt at a detached style of writing will inevitably result in a boring reportorial type of discourse that you'd expect to find in a newspaper. I'm not suggesting this is true for all non-objective writers but I feel it's true for me. Whenever I attempt to write something I cannot help but throw myself into the sentences. Honestly I think it's impossible not to. Even a journalist who's restricted to write only a 'factual' account of an incident, will personalise a story by using certain adjectives that jump to his/her mind but might not occur to another writer.

  As pretentious as it sounds I was hoping this space could be somewhere for me to establish some kind of intellectual standpoint that might inspire others to share their opinions or ideas. I didn't want to put too much of myself in my words so I wouldn't come across as adherently liberal and thus be of no interest to any Right wing readership that may stumble across this page.

I think I was being pretentious.

Instead I've decided to stick to what I know. Instead of restricting myself by trying to change how I write for the fear of it being 'shit', cheesey, embarrassing or indeed pretentious I'm just going to go ahead and write something. Fuck the haters.

To be honest I don't know what I know at the moment if I had to describe myself in terms of a political standpoint I'd say that I'm a disillusioned far left. From mid to late teens I spent quite a lot of my time complaining about the systems in place, complaining about the hypocrisy and the hate. I liked the ideologies of the hippies in the 1960s, of trying to opt out of the system entirely.  Though I still admire that movement to a certain extent I'm starting to see a lot of futility and disparity. For the most part the hippies were white youths from middle class backgrounds who decided that a future of capitalist ladder climbing was not for them. And to be honest I'm exactly the same. I thought doing nothing at the cost of the system was the best way to react to it. Fuck getting a job, fuck buying from conglomerates who essentially employ slave labor and fuck obeying all the laws put in place by a bunch of pensioners with antiquated bigoted opinions... Let's all spend the rest of our lives at a big loved up sit-in, in a field, with lots of flowers and joints to share whilst we do nothing.
A bit selfish don't you think... It's a lot easier for those who already have it. The hippies weren't exactly a mass working class movement.

I liked and still do like the idea of socialism it seems like the most equal way of ordering society but then when I think about it, properly functioning capitalism doesn't have to actively encourage exploitation and mass inequality. It comes down to one thing. People are corrupt! No matter what economic/political system gets put in place there will always be people out there to abuse/bend/manipulate/control the system for there own ends. To me people seem inherently greedy. It seems like the options are to try and claw your way to the top treading on every other motherfucker or if you are lucky(wealthy) enough you do what the hippies did and just opt out. For a long time these seemed like the only options and the latter always seemed the more appealing. I don't care about being vastly wealthy or having a whole business at my command I just want to be comfortable.

Maybe I just have to bite the bullet and work within this malicious system but maybe it's not only the rich and powerful who can bend and manipulate it. Maybe we need to adopt a little anarchy. I'm not saying I'm going to burn down the town but maybe we should stop caring about all of the bullshit. Maybe we stop accepting a fate prescribed to us by the state and start making our own opportunities and if that means breaking the law maybe we break the law. The multi-nationals use 'loop holes' all the time to dodge laws and protocol and even down-right break human rights laws behind smoke and mirrors. So I think we should start feeling comfortable breaking laws that harm these big brands.

I have an idea. We raid every single branch of Tescos at once! 300 masked marauders to each store. Someone creates a diversion and whilst the security are otherwise engaged the mob pillages the place taking as much as they can carry after which they disperse into the surrounding environs. The next day we hit Asda, then Sainsbury's, then M&S etc. People will get caught, people will go to jail but the movement will grow. Then on the 5th of November we blow up parliament!!... Ok I'm start to see my own hypocrisy here but it would be pretty cool.

Countless philosophers with far better minds than mine have tried to solve the age old 'how to manage society' argument but I don't think they're is an answer. I just want everyone to be able to live self sufficiency without encroaching on anyone elses happiness. But that seems like too much to ask.

Fuck it!

The whole time I spent writing this blog I was listening to this track on repeat. Partly because I thought the rhythm was keeping my brain active enough to write, partly because it's a nice song to listen to when considering the futility of existence but mostly because it reminded me of my girlfriend who I won't be seeing for a month and who I love very much.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3AdabEnicE